My head is in a whirl. I am trying to get work done on my blog but I can’t seem to concentrate. For the last couple of weeks I haven’t been feeling very well. I have been suffering with stomach pain and nausea for years now and it’s just been a part of my life.
The pain this time is different and not letting up. I finally decided it was time to visit the doctor. Since the pain is all over and not in one specific spot the doctor ordered blood work and x-rays to see if If something was wrong with my intestines. I’m a glutton for punishment and know that every time I eat popcorn or any type of corn it really kills my guts for some reason. =( I figured this time it really has done me in.
Got my call this morning and found out my blood work looked okay. They are thinking the pain could be because of the popcorn or possibly kidney stones. (Yikes this going to be fun, not!) They also said my stomach x-rays looked okay. All that seems like okay news besides passing kidney stones of course. Along with the stomach x-rays, I had a chest x-ray that was ordered at the same time, not exactly sure why but anyway it had been part of the testing.
Now the next thing I heard I’ll never forget. “Your chest x-ray on the other hand shows a spot (nodule) on your left lung.” I wasn’t expecting to hear anything like that. I was told that they would compare this x-ray to previous x-rays from the past to see if it has been there before or not and go from there…
My husband keeps telling me not to worry until there’s something to worry about. That’s hard for me to do. There is something there and I don’t know what it is. Of course in my mind all I can think of is it being cancer. I’m scared and petrified. How am I suppose to shut off my feelings and not worry? I have 5 kiddos to take care, what is going to happen if something happens to me? This waiting game not knowing is really hard and going to be until I finally know what that spot is.
Have you ever been so scared or petrified? How did you overcome that? Am I worrying for nothing?