How would you feel?

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My head is in a whirl. I am trying to get work done on my blog but I can’t seem to concentrate. For the last couple of weeks I haven’t been feeling very well. I have been suffering with stomach pain and nausea for years now and it’s just been a part of my life.

The pain this time is different and not letting up. I finally decided it was time to visit the doctor. Since the pain is all over and not in one specific spot the doctor ordered blood work and x-rays to see if If something was wrong with my intestines. I’m a glutton for punishment and know that every time I eat popcorn or any type of corn it really kills my guts for some reason. =( I figured this time it really has done me in.

Got my call this morning and found out my blood work looked okay. They are thinking the pain could be because of the popcorn or possibly kidney stones.  (Yikes this going to be fun, not!) They also said my stomach x-rays looked okay. All that seems like okay news besides passing kidney stones of course. Along with the stomach x-rays, I had a chest x-ray that was ordered at the same time, not exactly sure why but anyway it had been part of the testing.

Now the next thing I heard I’ll never forget. “Your chest x-ray on the other hand shows a spot (nodule) on your left lung.” I wasn’t expecting to hear anything like that. I was told that they would compare this x-ray to previous x-rays from the past to see if it has been there before or not and go from there…

My husband keeps telling me not to worry until there’s something to worry about. That’s hard for me to do. There is something there and I don’t know what it is. Of course in my mind all I can think of is it being cancer. I’m scared and petrified. How am I suppose to shut off my feelings and not worry? I have 5 kiddos to take care, what is going to happen if something happens to me? This waiting game not knowing is really hard and going to be until I finally know what that spot is.

Have you ever been so scared or petrified? How did you overcome that? Am I worrying for nothing?

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  • Patranila

    My motto is to not worry until there’s something to worry about. Hope you feel better soon.

  • Marielle Altenor

    Wow! I hope it turns out to be nothing. The last time I was scared was when I started spotting about 12 weeks into my second pregnancy. My hubby also told me not to worry but I went to the hospital. It wasn’t good news….still can remember the ride from my house to the hospital and the days after. It was awful!

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Melissa.

  • Melissa Smith

    Telling someone not to worry is much easier said than done. Sending positive vibes, juju, thoughts, prayers & whatever else you may need. Please keep us posted.

  • Chrissy

    I think your Husband is right and you should take his advice because stress can lead to other things happening to your body. I tell you this and I should do it too because I’m a BIG worryer lol I’m 32 and had a kidney stone last year, the pain of having it in my body was like giving birth again but I honestly never felt it come out, what a relief. The lung thing I know is scary but please try to keep positive. Turn to family and friedns to keep you busy until you get those results and smile! 🙂

  • Rosey

    It’s easy to say not to worry if you’re not a worrier. Right? I hope all is well and you find out quickly what’s going on.

  • Kristen

    Your husband is right. Don’t worry until you know something. It doesn’t do you any good. Go get a pedicure or spend a day doing something you love.

  • Kira T

    There is no way to tell you not to worry about that. I felt the same way waiting for results of a skin biopsy. My thoughts are with you and your family. Please keep us updated.

  • HilLesha

    I’m hoping and praying for the best!

  • Regina

    I’d have to agree with your hubby..be anxious for nothing. Of course that is easier said than done but it sounds like despite the uncertain news you have much to be thankful for. I’d try focusing on those good things in the meantime to put you a bit more at ease and restore a sense of hope.

  • WEMAKE7

    Sorry to hear about your mom Roch.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Rebecca

  • WEMAKE7

    Thanks Catherine

  • WEMAKE7

    Thanks Benni

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thanks Taylor

  • Rebecca Swenor

    It could be just about anything so right now listen to your husband but also listen to your body. You have to stay positive and not negative. Negative energy brings neg. and positive brings positive. Hope it all works out for you and keep us informed please. Thanks for sharing which sharing can help also.

  • Liz Mays

    I’m sure I’d be thinking the same thing you are and worrying. It’s the not knowing that is almost the hardest because you can’t take a step in any direction without knowledge.

  • Roch

    My mom’s heart is also in a whirl. She has passed all x-rays, MRI, CAT scan, endoscopy, ultrasound and other medical checks but to no avail — she still does not know what’s wrong with her right abdomen area. We are deeply worried about her health because it causes her to be so depressed. She has been experiencing this for 6 years now.

  • Trish

    I read a book once where the author recommends doing this when faced with a big worry: Let yourself go to the worst possible outcome. Go there and face it. What would that look like? What would you have to do? Write it out if you have to. Then just put it away. You’ve already prepped yourself for the worst so there’s nothing left to do but go on living.

  • FamiGami

    I hope that spot isn’t anything and just a smudge on the print. Heed your husband”s words. Stress is pointless. Worry about nothing until you need to worry.

  • XmasDolly

    It’s only human to be worried/scared, but what you should remember is the Lord doesn’t give you more than you can handle. So, this too you will be able to handle yeah or nay! Prayers give your strength so when your relief does come, don’t forget to give thanks.

  • Taylor

    My mom has had similar results on multiple tests. She never had cancer though! Sometimes there are cysts or bump things in our bodies that look worse on an x ray than they are in reality! Hopefully it is one of those cases! It makes sense to be nervous though! But as I told my mom, don’t worry until you find out the worst. If you worry for nothing you stress out your heart! Sending prayers your way <3

  • celebbabylaundry

    I hope that nothing serious is wrong with you!

  • Kungphoo

    A year and a half ago, i woke up in the middle of the night with tremendous pain.. i was taken out by an ambulance, to find out i had kidney and Gaul stones.. its not easy to over come that pain but they passed..

  • Benni

    Praying for you and for all the people in the same condition. Hope it’s gonna be okay (i’m sure it is)

  • Catherine S

    Waiting is the hardest part. I hope everything turns out to be okay. Just take it one day at a time and try to stay positive.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Nile.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Cindy.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Sandy.

  • Sandy

    My heart goes out to you. I think doctors can really make a fool of us, with taking forever to diagnose. Just earlier this year I was starting to get dizzy spells..thankfully, they’re all gone. Best of luck for your health!

  • Cindy (Vegetarian Mamma)

    Sending some extra prayers you way! Praying for clear results!

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you so much for your kind words.

  • MC Awesome

    I’m sure this is so hard for you and already said a prayer for you. For you husband, I’m sure it’s hard for him not knowing how to fix this himself or at a loss of supporting words other than not to worry till they confirm what it might be. From a man’s perspective, we don’t like to show fear and especially during moments we need to be strong. Praying for your family and skilled doctors to be with you too.

  • Nile Flores

    It’s gotta be tough waiting. The spot could be anything, including anything that may have gone down the wrong pipe while eating. Hopefully it’s nothing.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you so much for posting Melissa and sharing your story. I feel a little better now and thank for telling me about that group. <3

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Bekah

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Samantha

  • Heather

    Oh well I hope you feel better soon. I’m never very productive when I’m not feeling very well. I hope its something you can get over easily.

  • Nicole @Nicole’s Lifestyle lounge

    The worst part about waiting for results is the waiting part. The mind plays all kinds of tricks on you while you’re just waiting. I know what you mean.

  • Samantha Angell

    I don’t blame you at all for being worried, and I certainly would be in your position as well. Hopefully it will be nothing but a good reminder to take care of yourself!

  • Bekah

    I think it is only natural to be terrified of the unknown. I understand your anxiety and certainly hope it turns out to be nothing. In the meantime, you might have to break up with corn.

  • Melissa Stover

    Also wanted to mention in my last post but forgot, try not to worry yourself too much, it may be something minor…..may be scar tissue, an infiltrate of some sort, or a benign nodule 🙂 (((Hugs))) Feel free to email me if you ever need to talk.

  • Melissa Stover

    I know exactly how you feel. I have been in your shoes. I am 35 year old mother of 2 toddlers, when I was 31 I was 3 months pregnant with my son, I kept getting pneumonia and went to the hospital, they did a chest xray and seen a spot, so they wanted to do a ct scan, the ct scan showed it was a tumor. There was nothing I could do about it beings I was pregnant it was a watch and wait situation. I stayed ill throughout my whole pregnancy fighting pneumonia because the tumor was blocking my airway in my R lung. I delivered my son who was a healthy 8lb 1oz baby, 4 weeks after he was born I had a bronchoscopy done, it determined the tumor was indeed cancerous, it was a Carcinoid Tumor (Neuroendocrine Tumor) within days I was scheduled to have a Thoracotomy to have it removed. My son was 5 weeks old when I had my surgery, I was terrified, a new first time Mom all I could think of was my baby. The surgery was a success, they had to remove the Right Lower and Right Middle Lobes of my lung, the recovery was painful and long, but I had my baby right there in the hospital with me every night 🙂 I had a 2.5 cm Typical Tumor. They were able to “Cure” it with surgery, I didn’t have to have any chemo or radiation. It has been over 3 years and I still see the oncologist and specialist faithfully……..I will pray for you <3 Just know you are not alone, there is a wonderful group on facebook called the Loveable Lungnoids feel free to come anytime for support. 🙂

  • WEMAKE7

    I know what you mean, I’m good at it too enough to where it makes me ill worrying all the time. Thanks for being there for me.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thanks CS. I saw your message on Twitter. That must be hard to wait for your results as well. I am waiting for them to compare x-rays and then we go from there..

  • Delacey

    Hugs! I think its very normal to be worried about news such as you received, coupled with your ongoing pain. Likewise, the worrying doesn’t help, and in fact can make you feel worse. My mom as well had a node seen on her lungs in an xray that they do not believe to be cancer, so it can be a positive outcome. I will keep you in my thoughts for a healthy resolution, for the node and for your pain.

  • Tena Osborne

    I don’t know how I wouldn’t worry. I would try not to obsess but ya I would be freaked out. The waiting game is the worst. I would feel better knowing that they found it. The odds are its nothing major and could quite possibly be a mistake in imaging. We as mothers have the worry thing down pat. Try not to expend too much energy worrying about the worst case scenario. I have about worried my head completely off a few times and every time it did no good what so ever. It was also unnecessary but that’s the way I am. I am very good at worrying. I hope they do not make you wait too long. If they do pester them. Be that squeaky wheel. I hope that you find some peace and you and your wonderful family will be in my thoughts and prayers. If you need to talk I am here. God Bless.

  • WEMAKE7

    I’m so glad to hear that your blood work turned out great. Ten days doesn’t seem long but it surely is a long time when waiting for an answer. Thank you for the positive thoughts.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you so much Gina, I appreciate that.

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Danielle. I will have to try to find some books to read when I can.

  • CS

    I commented to you on twitter, but wanted to leave a note for you here too. I do understand, and would feel the same as you. I do the waiting game on my testings with my breast cancer. The waiting is torture at times, it seems. I wanted to let you know though…I do understand and hope to hear all is well with you!!

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you so much Jackie

  • WEMAKE7

    Thank you Karen. I’m very sorry to hear about your heart.

  • KARENALBERTWINSLOW

    MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU. WE WILL SAY KEEP YOUR SPIRTS UP & SAY ITS NOTHING BUT I KNOW YOU CANT.

    A YEAR AGO IN WISC AT MY SUMMER HOUSE ON VACA I ALMOST COLLASPED. I HAD NOT FELT WELL FOR A FEW MONTHS & HAD FELT I HAD NOT REALLY GOTTEN OVER A FLU 3 MONTHS BEFORE. I HAVE IMMUNE PROBS SO THINGS TAKE LONGER FOR ME. WELL I WAS HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING & BEING 62 & A SMOKER I THOUGHT OH NO I HAVE LUNG CANCER !!!!!!.

    I WENT TO THE ER & THEY GAVE ME A BREATHING TREATMENT & TOOK EXRAYS. WELL THEY PROCEED TO TELL ME IM IN HEART FAILURE & GO HOME 350 MILES TO MY OWN DOC. WHAT THEY ALMOST KILLED ME.

    WELL I AM LUCKY IT WAS VIRAL BUT STILL SERIOUS. I HAVE VIRAL CARIOMYOPOTHY. THE LEFT SIDE OF MY HEART IS ENLARGED. RADY TRAVIS HAD A STROKE & ALMOST DIED FROM THE SAME THING, SO IM A VERY LUCKY PERSON.

    SO KEEP UP YOUR SPIRITS & PRAY ALL WILL BE OK. KAREN

  • Jackie

    I am saying a prayer that all is well and the spot is nothing.

  • Danielle Jones

    It’s so hard not to worry about things like that. I usually just pray and when you have spare time read a really good book. I’ve been reading Amish romance books. They really do take you to such a peaceful place. Maybe it’ll help get your mind off of your test until you can find out more.

  • gina

    I wish I had the words to comfort you, but the truth is you wont be at ease until you know what is truly going on with your body. If I were you I would pray a lot, spend time relaxing and taking special care of myself while I went through this difficult period of waiting for results. I know that sounds impossible with 5 kids, but now more than ever you need to be kind to yourself too. Feel what emotions you need to feel and acknowledge them because holding them in will only cause more anxiety. Being terrified is only natural, but remember you have more inner strength than you think and whatever the outcome you can deal with it because you have that inner strength on your side and an amazing family to love and support you. I am sending good thoughts/ prayers your way.

  • Kristie D.

    Oh my gosh! I can imagine your worry, sort of. I had Hepatitis C and had to wait TEN DAYS for results of bloodwork to see if treatment was working. Those were LONG days. And I didn’t have kiddos either. My bloodwork came back great which was amazing and wonderful since there were no other treatment options at that time. I’ll be thinking positive thoughts for you and your family.

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